Another nothing day. Still missing Greg, but handling it well. He texted me last night from South Carolina, which was totally unexpected, but very welcome and much appreciated.
I got into an argument with my mom this morning. She wanted to double-check the packing list they sent for the Leadership Workshop, and it said something about a Frisbee, and she just kind of laughed and said, “Can you throw a Frisbee?” Like it’s such a huge joke because I’m not athletically inclined. I hate it when they joke about me. As if I don’t have enough to deal with. So I told her that (well, only the first part), and she launched off on this big spiel about how I’m too sensitive, and people will always make fun of me (which makes me feel better… how?), and that I was being stupid for overreacting.
I’m not a confrontational person, so I just let it go. But she called me stupid. I know I’m not, but it hurt to hear her say that. It’s not the first time. And maybe I was overreacting about the Frisbee thing, but God, does she have to be so harsh all the time? If my main flaw is being sensitive, hers is altogether lacking sympathy. She gets on my nerves sometimes. I just want to scream at her. But she’s brought me up to respect people, especially her, no matter what. So I just stopped speaking to her and moved on.
Of course, my sensitivity was no help in holding back the tears that followed. I try not to let things get to me like that. It just never works. But I feel much better now. It helps that I haven’t had to speak to my mom since then (except “okay”). I know that when I do talk to her, she’ll be fine. Probably won’t remember a thing. Things always get to me, but they never get to her.
I finally remembered to cut my nails today, and watched part of E.T.: The Extra-Terrestrial while I ate lunch. Then I practiced piano a bit and watched almost all of Never Been Kissed. Love that movie. Drew Barrymore rocks.
My computer is flaky and unresponsive sometimes, which means I can’t always use the CD drives. By some miracle, they are working now. I pray they’ll still work after the next restart. Seizing the opportunity, I finally watched the videos from the enhanced part of Hotel Paper. Michelle Branch sounds good live. There was an acoustic version of “Hotel Paper” (the song), and she sounded so beautiful. I wish I could sing like that.
Hey, does anyone know where Rajni is? She hasn’t updated her site or journal since Wednesday, which is unheard of. Even when she accidentally hurt her computer, she sat through the slow loading to post an entry or two. For most people, not being online for a while would just mean they were busy, but not Rajni. I’m worried.
Edit: Computer freaked out. Forced a restart. CD drives are fine, currently ripping Michelle Branch for my RealOnePlayer. And Semagic is wonderful. I write my blog entries in that first, so that if I have to restart, the draft is saved. Joy.